Tomorrow is my first day back to work since having Colin and I am so sad/upset.  Yes, I am sad about leaving Emma and Colin with the babysitter, but that is not the worst part.  I really do love our babysitter and she and her family love Emma and Colin.  What I am not looking forward to is going back to my actual job. I really should not be feeling this way.  I mean I work for the school where I went to college.  I love to school itself.  It is my boss that I am not too excited about.  In my department we are working split shifts.  Which means that I work either 8-1 and 5-8 or 12-8 Monday thru Thursday.  When am I supposed to spend time with my family?  Because of this Dh is not going to be able to get a part-time job to help pay off our credit card debt.  Which really stinks because our goal was to be out of debt except for our house by the end of the year. 

I interviewed for a job here in town that I would love to have and that I really think that I would be good at, but I won't know if I got it until sometime during the week.  Which means that I have to go back and work the stupid split shifts at least until I hear about the job later in the week.  I am really thinking that I did not get the job, though I am praying that it is because I am feeling so upset about going back to work. 

I am sorry that this got so long and melodramatic.  Please pray for me tomorrow.  I really don't know if I am going to be able to make it through the day without crying.

So I had my interview today and I am really praying that I get it!  The gentleman who interviewed me told me that he would contact me sometime next week.  I am really hoping and praying that I he will offer me the job, I think that I could be really good at it.

I am also working really hard at getting my Mary Kay business off the ground.  I think that the product is the best out there and the earning potential is unlimited.  The best thing is that eventually I will be able to stay home with my children.

So Long

It has been so long since I last did an entry (I never was good at keeping diaries or journals growing up).  Since I last wrote I had a beautiful baby boy (Colin Patrick 12/12/05 and 7 lb 10 oz 20 in). 

My maternity leave is set to expire Monday and I really don't want to go back to work.  I am not sure if it is work in general that I don't want to do or just the job that I have now.  I am really not happy there.  Which is really too bad since it where I went to college and I love the school.  I just can't stand working for my boss, he does not understand that I have a family and tries to undermine at every turn.  I have applied to a couple of jobs and have heard from one.  I am really hoping and praying that I hear from them again today.